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Some Lessons Learned Along The Way...
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My Philosophy
you only get one life.... live it. stop worrying about what has happened to you in the past. you cant change it, thats
why its in the past. you are suppose to learn the lesson life is teaching you. ive learned when you dwell in the past you
never can move on, theres alife past all that has happened to you, theres a lesson behind each scar. you might not see it
now but one day you will. so live life as if there isnt one next, live each day to the fullest.
Love
Ok so love doesnt always come easy or always come (hahaha), but its a great feeling to have. i love my bf
and hopefully one day he will ask me to be his forever and take me away from this hell hole i call home. theres problems in
our relationship like others and there are good things about it. i think my biggest mistake i have ever done is compare my
relationship with him to the relationships of my friends. were unique we dont have to be like every other couple there is
around us. were perfect being imperfect. hes possesive, moody and doesnt like people, im loud obnoxious outgoing and stubborn.
we together make up the whole range of characteristics of a taurus. weird that we both are tauruses. life isnt perfect neither
is love.
i wanna be beautiful, not anything else
i believe a woman should be beautiful inside out is an option. there are so many women who are so beautiful inside and
men just dont see it cause they are so interseted in eye candy. well guess what candy melts in heat and water, a women wont.
i want to be beautiful inside. im fat and ugly i snore and i talk and eat too much and thats ok but i want to be beautiful
inside. beauty isnt always skin deep. there are some pretty people who have beautiful souls. now my bf says
i should drop some pounds and my friends say i should get my hair nails done put on some makeup. will it make me beautiful?
no just cheap eye candy. dont get me wrong i like those stuff but i dont want to be judged by my looks but by my heart and
soul. so ive been nicer to people havent lied recently, and tried to think of others before myself but i still fill like something
is missing. i havent prayed in a while or done any spells, i havent even meditated which is weird for me. maybe what i really
lack is love of myself and peace of mind. i just wanna be loved and beautiful to someone. Mike will never get it. i sometimes
feel he doesnt really love me, just using me like all you other bitches. yes even you my friends use me somehow (either for
your good or something negative). i dont know what to do...
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You can't change the past or ignore it like it never happened,
you learn to live with the scars and hope they don't seep open with the pain that builds behind them..................................
I gave up so many years ago to fight off all the evil that had tried to engup me. All thoses years of abuse took
their toil when i stared down at my mother needle, but i could never take my life and let them know they had one. i fight
a war inside, dying to live another day and living to die. I am the prodcut of my childhood. a selfish spiled brat who has
never been to the real world, i wouldnt survive out there anyway. im too damaged to try. one day i woke up and realized the
only way for someone to love me, was for me to love myself. today i can finany say i love myself. there are things i would
love to change but i love myself.......finally! 
About Being a Witch
i am a witch. not the kind that rides on broomsticks or puts evil spells on people
(even though i do cast spells) iam the kind who cares for life itself and want to better my spiritual growth by being one
with the Divine and one with nature. im the kind of witch that wants to run out in the rain and let the water kiss my cheeks,
the kind that goes outside on a windy day to send messages to people using the power of the wind. Im the kind of witch that
goes playing in the mud and make sure it all sticky and goooy. i love being a witch, i love feeling a part of a whole. i can
practice what i want, blend and reject religons if that is apart of my path. an i don't condone other relgions who try to
make anyone feel inferior. i love all people but some can be so closed minded and ignorant. my parents are a prime example.
they are christian and don;t except anything different but i love them anyway. i refuse to hate them for what thewy believe
and someday i wish for them to except what i believe
So i have finally found out that people dont like me because im real. im true to myself and to others
and yet people still hate that trait of mine whether im being nice about it or rude. so to all you who want to change that
trait i have aquired over the years.... go fuck yourself. do it nice and hard in the ass because im not changing myself for
nobody.
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Do you agree or disagree with my beliefs and opinions? I'd love to hear from you. Check out my "Contact Me" page to send me
e-mail.
our lives meant nothing; we were sinners,whores, alcoholics, love addicts. some nights we were prositutes,
selling our hearts on the open market...we turned good girls into siners, bad boys into lovers, and ourselves from abused
little girls into broken women
©Solitia
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