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♥My name is Jacquie (pronounced Jackie) I live at home with my parents
♣I go to the local community college and majoring in Social Work (I believe we should leave the world better than how we were born into)
♠I work at a Starbucks on I-95
♦ I'm the youngest of three. I'm a spoiled brat and i will admit to it. I try not to be. I'm really caring and love for people to look out for me not take care of me.
♥I'm a cuddler, kisser, hugger, lover, I love to lay there in someone's arms or with someone in mine. I love dating women. I have an open relationship No this isn't a couple, just me. I guess you can kinda call me polyamorus. I can handle more than one relationship at a time. I had a girlfriend [til she moved leaving a whole in my heart] while dating the current boyfriend. I loved her so much and missed her. I do have a boyfriend. He supports my choices (he's okay i date girls too, he doesn't want anything to do with my other relationships)He just doesn't want to go out or talk or cuddle, he doesn't do much of anything i like to do. Ladies! Someone come please fill this void
♣I love being around people. All types of people. Even those who bring in the drama. It's funny to watch sometimes. I get bored and depressed not being around someone. I'm very shy at first too till i get warmed up to that person
♠Ive been told I'm a major empath. My downfall. I can feel other people emotions so well, i kinda get mixed up with mine. I hate to see people suffer or in pain
♦ I'm pagan and i love it (yes I'm a witch). I grew up Pentecostal Christian(Assemblies of God) and my parents are pastors, but that wasn't my path. I do love learning others' religions. I'm very open minded
♥I'm not your traditional black girl (whatever your thinking take it and flip it around)Hard Rock is my music by choice. Now occasionally when i feel "black" hip hop ends up in my cd player
♣I am an American Mutt! I am mixed with African American, Cherokee and Blackfoot Indian
♠I love to read, write my own stories and sing (come to my job you'll hear me singing oldies)
♦ I'm getting pretty good at learning languages. I love to learn about other cultures (I've worked with Russian, Brazilian, Indian, Romanian, Turkish, Taiwanese, Thai and Peruvian students at my job)Remembering them when the students leave is the major problem
♥I am lyric whore (not to mention i love music). Give me lyrics i can relate to and you got me hooked
♣You can catch me at the park (i love the swings). I love being outside in general. There are these woods in my neighborhood behind my old school, i love to explore.
♠I love being out in the rain during the summer and the snow during the winter (but i hate thunder and lightning,i guess i never got over being scared of it) So which also means i like getting muddy.
♦ I believe in love at first sight (and the smack in the head it gives us). You just know when you are gonna love someone
♣ I'm beautiful, not pretty (and squishy not fat, or heavy)
♥I'm content with who i am. I can't change me no matter how i try. But why would i wanna change anyway?

What I'm doing with my life

I'm going to college to become a social worker or a counselor. I want to change the world little by little. I'm writing a self help book for my coworker. She says i have all the answers to everything and i never let anything get to me and I'm so confident.I work at Starbucks most of the week if I'm not in school. My weekends are spent hanging with friends or trying to study.

I'm really good at

Making coffee (duh i work at Starbucks), writing, English i guess, learning other languages, Being me. I'm a good listener. It's no wonder all my friends come to me with all their problems. I love to hear them and help out as much as i can.

The first thing(s) people usually notice about me

My boobs, they're huge.(I catch people staring) My personality and my voice. I love to be loud and flamboyant. My personality is really down to earth with a little style. I want people to be comfortable around me. My smile too. I smile through everything.

My favorite books, movies, music, and food

I love music and I'm a lyric whore, give me good lyrics!
Anime is taking up too much of my hard drive.
My fav food is strawberries and whip cream or straberries with equal.
My fav movies are Queen of the Damned (Stewart Townsend is so hott!), Enchanted (so cute), Ever After, The Lion King, Beauty and the Beast, Hancock, The Princess Diaries(ok a lot of Disney), Superhero Movie, Scary Movie 1 and 2, and
My fav artists are Evanescence, Three Days Grace, Paramore,Sevendust, Staind, Flyleaf and System of a Down
My fav songs are Every Heart by BoA, Sayonara Solitia by Saeko Chiba, Stand in the Rain by Superchic[k], Missing by Evanescence
My fav book is Flowers in the Attic by V.C Andrews. I love romance and suspense
My fav color is blue, i wear it a lot

The six things I could never do without

*no particular order*
1. Love- i need it like the air i breathe. I give love, i wanna get love. does that make me selfish?
2. People- i would die without social interactions
3. Faith- it means alot to me. I've finally found it, and working hard to make myself a better person to make the world better
4. Music- enough said
5. Friends- i don't think i would be who i am today if i didn't have them
6. communications- cell phone, internet

I spend a lot of time thinking about

Life and love. It's so precious and i want it to be preserved and cherished. Maybe that's why i went it to social work to make sure it is. My religious path. It has taken my eight years of study to finally realize what i am. I started studying witchcraft in my freshman year of high school and I'm still not finish studying.

On a typical Friday night I am

Out at someone's party or watching anime. I like being in the house at times to. I would rather be cuddled up nice and warm against someone then to be at a party.

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a witch, yes except i dont ride brooms

a girl who has had enough of people saying she was nothing and would never be loved

i kno im not emo but who cares

the should people cry on

a wrtiter, a singer

someone who loves people

someone who eats oreo cookies, i kno canniblism

a friend, a lover

a pysco but yet a kid at heart

i love black and white

candy freak, and strawberries

a movie junkie


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I love anime and mangas

i love talking on the phone

i can sit for hours watching Queen of the Damned and Rent

I want to change, the world and myself

i like to shock people

i have no taste of fashion, thats how i got craziest style in high school

i like cartoons

i love butterflies and dragons

i performs spells

i could swing on my swing

ask me anything i'll tell the truth

I use to self mutalate myself

i wished daily that i would die

i am spoiled and thats a bad thing

im caged inside

i love to easily

i am bisexual,

i love hard rock and alternitive rock, no rap please

my best friends are my family

i am a poet

our lives meant nothing; we were sinners,whores, alcoholics, love addicts. some nights we were prositutes, selling our hearts on the open market...we turned good girls into siners, bad boys into lovers, and ourselves from abused little girls into broken women
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